Wild:

Been writing in Gallifreyan a lot today
things like "I miss the river"
things like "My heart longs for your hearts"
things like "I miss the sound of your voices"

I think I miss the stability, if not the silence, in Fort
which surprises me
it's so funny to realize I'll read this later and feel angry at myself
feel stupid--how could I ever miss home with ____ going on?

But the people I love are there, waiting for me
the people who know me and not the well-behaved person I've been trying to be
the real me
the me I hate so much it makes me sick there

all the irony, no?

but all I want right now is an Xbox or a Nientendo or some Who
Some Criminal Minds, Being Human, Lost Girl
my books, oh God, my books, I actually made a list of random quotes swimming over my eyeballs yesterday
that's my life at home

and it isn't a full one,
but I can make it better.

It'll be hard. There's no mistaking that. I can't forget that.




I also think I can do it.
After what I've already done, already seen, am to do, am to see, this Summer....
I can rule my own life, for God's sake
I can try.

I won't let myself be buried again
not one limb, not one finger, not one strand of too-long hair
no earth for me.

I will be a Wild and dangerous thing......