Today, I watched some wedding shows
painted a sunflower onto my cards
played with my dogs
ignored the silence
Fin invited me out,
and now I'm at Ben's, tumblring
in my mad hatter outfit.
My Mom's getting married in a week from today,
one week.
Today I decided that I'm not having a pity party for myself anymore
I need to let the past go,
especially if I'm to have any sort of a future.
I need to close my eyes, and hope.
It gets harder every time,
because I see how heavy Adult's shoulders are
you know, from living.
I am going to throw myself into life, now
stop breathing, stop resting, and live.
Maybe do the American Clubbing thing
that sounds reasonably fun
and probably dieting, dieting sounds important
prettier girls have an easier time of it
so I can fool them into thinking I am, if I'm a little thinner, maybe
oh, right.
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