Special

I make friends by loving,
and giving them my heart.

I am very used to people not taking it
not wanting it
not using it at all
or worse yet
taking it
using it for evil
then throwing it away.

That I am used to.

I am not used to laughs
when I can't control my wild side
when all I want to do is make happiness
I am not used to kindness,
I am not used to Katie happy or
an un-shy Renee,
not used to a grinning Hannah
a sleepy Mrs. Nathan (good-hearted darling)
furry dogs

and a full, untouched hurt.


Finley's coming and I'm smiling
and I'm not hurt.


I don't deserve
to be happy
but I'll accept it,
anyways.