Special: Oh, God, Please no

Fuck, I think I"m going deaf.
It's like there's a block in my ears.
I don't know what's wrong with me,
I can't hear human voices
or the pen across the paper.

I try and get my ears to "Pop"
-Like when you're on an airplane-
been chewing gum for days,
but they won't pop.

People stare as I dig fingers in my ears,
make noises during tests,
but what can I do?
Oh God, my God, Please--
not my ears.

I beg you, God, not the ears.
Taste or smell, fine,
never the ears.
Please, please. God, I'm imploring you--
not my ears.

To not know music,
Katie's or Finley's voice.....
nononono.... Please, Please, no.

Not my ears. Please, Please, not my ears.