Kate Murley
I am very sorry that I hurt you Payton. That was never my intent. Please forgive me.
Payton Thompson
If hanging out with me seriously was the worst night of your life... *Sighs* I'm not angry with you, Kate. It is not in me to stay angry. Especially not to someone who means that much to someone I love so, most especially not then. I just want that letter. I just want to know I didn't fuck you up too bad when I tried to be myself around you, because I feel guilt and remorse over that.
Kate Murley
You didn't mess me up. You're "stories" (sorry I have no other word for them) are simply too fantastic for me to believe. I know that hurts you but thats how it is for me. And all your desire to "help" me.....I don't look to people to do that, I look to God. So no I don't want you to feel you need to help me. I don't know if I will write you the letter because the letter I was ging to write is drastically different from what I would wirte now.
Payton Thompson
You asked me about them, and I told you. Why did you ask if you didn't want to hear? If you were different, I'd offer proof. I'd offer Rose meetings or Rose pictures, I'd offer the Law. It doesn't matter, Kate! They kicked me out, remember? I'm all done with that shit now. I answer the occasional, 'This isn't real, is it?' or political ploy that's sailing for problems, and that's it. I fell in love with a 'human'. Like it or not, though, I helped a lot of people with those stories. Many, many, many people.
And I'd be offended if I gave a shit about anything but the people... but I don't. It's the people I care about, Kate. I tried SO HARD not to bring that up! So hard! I tried really hard just to be who I am NOW. Right now. As for God.... of course he wants to help you, Kate. I understand you don't want it to be me, and I respect that choice. I just don't understand why you brought all that up, but I knew you didn't want me to prove any points, so I played idiot for an hour. Because that's what you wanted me to do. It was an overstrechted game of Othello.
That doesn't mean I give up on you, or that I'll try to help you again. I won't make that mistake. But at least give me some idea what you would have said if you didn't think I was coocoo bananas, Kate? If you believed me when I said I was done with that shit (because I am), and you hadn't trapped me with my own bumblebee tongue? Can't I ask that?
Let me be clear: I am not done with helping those in the Roses. Just the Roses themselves.
Payton Thompson
Another tidbit, just for the shits and giggles of it: how is He going to help you, if not by sending people who care and want to help you anyway? You think He's going to give you the knowledge and you'll just wake up and be better, Kate?
It won't change your mind, but it's sure something to think about.
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