Special

Well, I'm allegedly new. Except not at all.

I have my laptop back, nobody's on chat when I wish they were,
all that stuff.

Only real difference
is that I opened my windows media player, for music, and found a whole bunch of new stuff on there
Schiffy must have given it to me
what a nice guy

and I close my eyes and make love to that music
all music, new and old
that I have heard from nowhere except my new voice


aside from that, I'm re-reading East.
That book always manages to catch up with me,
even before Sappho.

"It's a funny thing. I think it was Mother and I who had the hardest time with Rose's wandering ways. But we both had different ways of living with it. Mother tried always to reel her in. To keep her close by. But for me, I knew it couldn't be done, so I just ached and felt sorry for myself when she'd disappear. That's the trouble with loving a wild thing: you're always left watching the door.
But you also kind of get used to it."

-p. 12, Neddy (on Rose)